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Monday, March 17, 2008

Dear Blog

Hope everything is well with you. You must have been pretty anxious as I have not been around for a while. Even my parents have been worried if everything is alright between us. My friend from Seremban also emailed me to find out the same thing. If I had you worried, then I am sorry.

Then again, there is a saying that love means never having to say sorry. I don't know. I am so confused. You see, the reason I stayed away was because I needed some space for myself. I feel that our relationship was getting suffocating. I needed some air to breathe. I know, I started all this and promised you a lot. I was passionate about you. I was addicted to you.

The past three months were terrific. I shared my inner thoughts with you. You listened emphatically to me. I know I have not been a very exciting person and I must have bored you at times with my dull stories. But still, you were very accommodating. And yes, you introduced me to many of your friends in the blogosphere. I must admit, you are way more sociable than me.

You opened my eyes to your world. You introduced me to Zewt, who has stopped by to drop a word or two occasionally. You have also brought me to visit him. At first I was surprised to see how popular he was. After that, I realized that he bothers to interact with people, in fact, I think he enjoys meeting people.

And recently, while you took me with you to observe the General Elections in Malaysia, you wanted me to meet with your new friend, Terri. I must say, your friend can really cook! Talking about food, this reminds me of the Sarawak Laksa recipe your friend, Lynnx01, gave me. I can't wait to try my hand at it.

Lately, I am beginning to feel a strain in our relationship. I feel like I am spending too much time with you and have little time for myself. You know how I stayed up all night with you every night. It has reached the point where I feel that you are too demanding and everything has to be you first.

I need some time to think things over. Whether or not we have a future together. In fact, I need to think about my own future. My world is getting tougher by the day. Don't worry, I will not leave you in the dark. Let me just end by saying - you are always on my mind.

Just me
Susu Kacang


CY said...

Go ahead, re-evaluate, re-energize and re-strategize your position. Follow your heart and instinct. May the force be with you and just so you know, your blog will always be on my mind.

Susu Kacang said...

haiz, thanks dear. making me weep. i'll just take it easy then and enjoy blogging.