Hope everything is well with you. You must have been pretty anxious as I have not been around for a while. Even my parents have been worried if everything is alright between us. My friend from Seremban also emailed me to find out the same thing. If I had you worried, then I am sorry.
Then again, there is a saying that love means never having to say sorry. I don't know. I am so confused. You see, the reason I stayed away was because I needed some space for myself. I feel that our relationship was getting suffocating. I needed some air to breathe. I know, I started all this and promised you a lot. I was passionate about you. I was addicted to you.
The past three months were terrific. I shared my inner thoughts with you. You listened emphatically to me. I know I have not been a very exciting person and I must have bored you at times with my dull stories. But still, you were very accommodating. And yes, you introduced me to many of your friends in the blogosphere. I must admit, you are way more sociable than me.
You opened my eyes to your world. You introduced me to Zewt, who has stopped by to drop a word or two occasionally. You have also brought me to visit him. At first I was surprised to see how popular he was. After that, I realized that he bothers to interact with people, in fact, I think he enjoys meeting people.
And recently, while you took me with you to observe the General Elections in Malaysia, you wanted me to meet with your new friend, Terri. I must say, your friend can really cook! Talking about food, this reminds me of the Sarawak Laksa recipe your friend, Lynnx01, gave me. I can't wait to try my hand at it.
Lately, I am beginning to feel a strain in our relationship. I feel like I am spending too much time with you and have little time for myself. You know how I stayed up all night with you every night. It has reached the point where I feel that you are too demanding and everything has to be you first.
I need some time to think things over. Whether or not we have a future together. In fact, I need to think about my own future. My world is getting tougher by the day. Don't worry, I will not leave you in the dark. Let me just end by saying - you are always on my mind.
Just me
Susu Kacang
